So with everything going on in the past week I have been all worked up and worried about the silliest things!! My first reaction to my mom about the possibility of not working was "Are we still going to go have lunch with Sandy when you visit?" It's funny the things that you worry about that really don't matter as far as the decision that has to be made.
So ya I am realizing that I have some silly fears. It freaks me out to think that I might lose my friends. When my son was born I had lived in San Antonio almost two months. I had no friends and all of my family was in Arizona. It was just me and Josh at the hospital when I had the baby. I am scared I am going to go through all of this all alone again. It is such a minute thing when you look at the bigger picture, but I hope that I get visitors at the hospital or that my phone is going crazy with people that want to come see me and meet the baby.
I mean in reality I am going to be so excited once my baby girl is here and I know that no matter if there are a zillion people or no people there for me I will still have Josh. =] My mom will be coming to San Antonio after Jazmyn is born and I'll actually get to spend time with her, and hopefully everything works out that my sister will be here in Feb. But that doesn't mean that I don't have some silly fears...we will see what happens I guess.
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